Think twice before using Antibiotic’s

Our daughter was admitted to KGH this weekend because she refused to eat and drink, had a rising temperature of 40+ and had stopped having wet nappies. After being monitored for hours, a well caught urine sample (which was clear) and a painful blood test (which showed no sign of a Bacterial infection) we were told she potentially had the Flu but we had to wait for swab’s to confirm. The doctor wanted to start her two different antibiotics to which i refused and asked for his reasoning and a second opinion.

Antibiotics can be lifesaving but are only useful for treating bacterial infection’s. Viral diseases like Influenza can not be treated with antibiotics and inappropriate use of them is dangerous and contributes to the development of antibiotic resistance. An estimated 30% of the millions of prescriptions written each year are not needed and after suffering a C Diff infection myself i will not let my daughter be put at risk or become a superbug statistic.

Remember the hospital is NOT your home. Antibiotic- resistant bacteria are commonly found in hospitals. Make sure you and your caregivers wash their hands properly and regularly. Upto 70% of healthcare- aquired infections could be prevented by following proper hand hygiene.

Why should you care? Just Take a look at the statistics.

I am sharing this hoping others will realise it is OK to question your Doctor, to prove a bacterial infection is present before starting antibiotic’s and to ask for a second opinion if you are concerned.

Our daughter is still fighting this infection but is at home and hopefully on the road to recovery. She has open access for 72 hour’s and if there is any sign of a secondary infection she will be re admitted and tested for bacterial infection’s.

Seeing your child suffer is heartbreaking and we would do anything to take the pain away but antibiotic’s arn’t a quick fix option and can sometimes cause more servere infection’s which can be harder and sometimes impossible to treat.

#beantibioticaware #advocade #gutsymama #C.differently



I don’t know where my story will end but nowhere in my text will it ever read, “I gave up.”

Since i was 15 years old all i have ever wanted is William, a house of our own, a baby and to be married.

Throw in my successful business and i have more than i ever wished for and that makes me feel like the luckiest person in the world.

He finally popped the question on Christmas day 2014 after 9 amazing years of being together.

We bought our first house and moved in. I opened my own beauty business and fell pregnant three weeks later. After the birth of our daughter i really struggled having a different name to her so we booked our wedding…

Shortly after that i was diagnosed with a CDiff infection and my life – our lives changed forever.

During my recurrent CDiff infection’s i couldn’t see a future for myself.


Is one of the many things CDiff took from me.

But in the words of Martin Luthe King, Jr.

“If you lose hope, somehow you lose the vitality that keeps life moving, you lose that courage to be, that quality that helps you go on in spite of it all. And so today I still have a dream.”

It has taken a long time and i am still healing but i am finally able to hope again. I am looking forward to walking down the isle to my best friend and our daughter. For us to finally officially become the little family i have always dreamt about us being. (I am fully expecting to say my vows with her on my hip)

CDiff can have devistating effects and i feel lucky to be alive and greatful i have such a supportive fiancè who has stuck by my side through it all and for being patient while i have found the ‘new me’

I believe the reason our love will stand the test of time is because we have grown together not apart.

“I never promised you a ray of light I never promised there be sunshine every day I gave you everything I had, the good the bad”

“Looks Like We Made It
Look how far we’ve come my baby
We might have took the long way
We knew we’d get there someday
They said I bet they’ll never make it
But just look at us holding on
We’re still together still going strong”

“You’re the best friend that I ever had
I’ve been with you such a long time you’re my sunshine and I want you to know that my feelings are true I really love you you’re my best friend”



Dear Daughter,

I started writing to my baby when i fell pregnant. I wanted to document my 9 month journey into motherhood. It has now turned into my memoir.

“Our Journey”

On her 16th Birthday she will recieve my notebooks. I want to share my story and our journey and i hope that by reading it she will feel connected to me on a higher level.

What the doctors don’t tell you.

I have lost trust in doctors because they really let me down and put my health at risk but by doing my own reasearch i am feeling more confident and in control.

I hope that by sharing my knowledge one day she will feel confident enough to ask questions and i want her to know that it’s ok to choose her own path.

One Year

It has now been one year since i was diagnosed with a potentially life threatening bacterial infection. The superbug C Diff.

I am still here.

It was emotional but i got to enjoy my daughters first birthday, after many months of infections there were times i didnt think i would get to see that.

I havn’t had to take any antibiotics for almost 10 months and i havn’t had a relapse. I am happy, enjoying life and planning my wedding.

I am seeing more stories of younger people contracting this superbug. Everyone needs to be aware of C. diff and practice preventative measures, especially by participating in antibiotic stewardship.

I have had alot of people message me suffering from various issues and wanting advise about how to improve their gut or just to keep it healthy for the future.

My diet has changed dramatically over the past year. Here are just some of the probiotic foods and supplements i consume daily.

I used to ‘diet’ to loose weight, but after loosing 5 stone due to illness and not being able to stop (I still remember my mum crying with relief when i told her i had put weight on) my views on dieting and weight have completely changed.

80% of your immune system is in your gut, trillions of microbes which help to keep bad bacteria from takings over. Prosessed foods and convenience foods with preservatives and additives and diets high in sugar alter the gut microbe and feed bad bacteria.

We demand alot from our bodies sometimes without giving it what it needs. Don’t take your body for granted or starve it of vital nutrients to loose weight. Choose to “change your lifestyle” not to “diet” and you will see and feel the benefits.

If you get poorly you will need to have some spare weight to loose and a strong immune system to fight off infections.

I have also made other lifestyle changes that include getting my OCD under control. My fears and anxieties are still there but they are not taking over my life. I no longer have to wash my hands after everything i touch, i don’t feel the need to bleach the whole house everyday but knowing my limits and having a routine helps me.

Accepting my change and finding our new normal as a family has been difficult but i am proud of us for how far we have come.

I now make plans and look to the future instead of living every day scared of what may happen. I have also realised the less i have and the less i have to do, the more time and money i have to make memories with my family and friends.

Looking Back to move forward

Looking back on some of my first blogs one of the questions I asked myself was “what kind of mother am I supposed to be now?” I lost myself for a while because i wasn’t the mother I planned to be but i now feel I can answer that question…

A gutsy one

and one that raises awareness to help and support others.

”Becoming a mum didn’t mean the loss of your identity, it helped you discover it. You discovered a hidden confidence within yourself; you discovered passions and interests that led you to help and support hundreds of other women; you discovered your voice (you do have opinions about important topics after all!)”

Quote Lucy Dickens from “What I wish i’d known about life as a new mum”

Most people just presumed that i had post natal depression but I knew I didn’t. Postpartum depression can make it difficult for a mother to bond with her baby. It can also affect how the child develops, putting him or her at risk for attachment, cognitive, behavioral and emotional problems. That was nothing like what I was going through. I had post traumatic stress disorder.

Symptoms of both include loss of appetite, fatigue, trouble sleeping, mood swings, irritability, crying and decreased concentration but Symptoms PTSD include

    • exposure to a traumatic event
    • distressing memories about the event
    • nightmares
    • flashbacks
    • psychological distress
    • negative mood
    • altered sense of reality
    • inability to remember important aspects of the event
    • attempting to avoid symptoms and reminders of the event
    • problems with concentration
    • sleep disturbance and
    • hypervigilance.

Post natal depression can happen to even the most prepared women. Being aware and acknowledging these symptoms is so important. I feel doctors need to be more educated and informed about postpartum mental health and PTSD and how to tell the difference especially after a traumatic birth experience or a hospital aquired infection or in my case BOTH. I kept asking for help knowing that i didnt have post natal depression and that it wasn’t going to pass on its own. I had to fight for a referral and by the time I got one I had already been at breaking point.

PTSD can also cause stress in loved ones so it’s very important for them to have support from friends and family.

I am accepting that I am not perfect. I can’t go back and change what has happened—and actually the things that seemed important before don’t seem to matter anymore. I have found an appreciation for life that i didn’t have before, i am more health conscious, and i’ve found a cause close to my heart to raise awareness of

Despite everything i am happy, my daughter is thriving, We have so much fun and I am enjoying life again ❤


Are you eating the right foods to help your good gut bacteria?

Your body contains trillions of microbes, most of which are beneficial. They play a critical role in digestion, immune function and weight regulation.

What you eat isn’t just nutrition for you, it also feeds the trillions of bacteria that live in your gut.

You should eat a wide range of plant-based foods. A healthy gut has a diverse community of microbes, each of which prefer different foods. Eat more fibre. Most people eat less than they should. Fruit, vegetables, pulses, nuts and wholegrains feed healthy bacteria. Avoid highly processed foods. They often contain ingredients that either suppress ‘good’ bacteria or increase ‘bad’ bacteria. Probiotic foods, such as live yoghurt, might encourage more microbes to grow. Eat them if you enjoy them. Choose extra-virgin olive oil over other fats when you can. It contains the highest number of microbe-friendly polyphenols. Antibiotics kill ‘good’ bacteria as well as ‘bad’. If you need antibiotics, make sure you eat lots of foods that boost your microbes and take probiotics during and afterwards. If your diet is low in fibre, a sudden increase can cause wind and bloating. This is less likely if you make gradual changes and drink extra water.

Probiotics vs prebiotics

Prebiotics are foods that ‘fertilise’ our existing gut bacteria and encourage the development of a diverse community of microbes. These foods are complex carbohydrates, such as vegetables and wholegrains.

Probiotics are foods, or food supplements, that contain live bacteria thought to be beneficial to us. This includes live yoghurt,kirfir, kombuca, some cheeses and fermented foods.

Vegetables from the sunflower family (artichokes, radicchio, lettuce, tarragon, chicory and salsify) and the lily family (leeks, chives, shallots, onions, garlic and asparagus) are particularly helpful to gut bacteria”

Look out for anything probiotic! We found chocolate with ONE BILLION live bacteria per bar!


A picture say’s a thousand words…

This photo was taken when Ella was only a few days old, we were going on our first family outing. I still remember how i felt in that moment. Before C. Diff, Before my life changed forever.

We have some lovely family photos from the past year but in alot of them I can still remember the pain behind my smiles so this one will always be my favourate. It keeps me fighting everyday for my family. 💖👨‍👩‍👧

Not long after this photo was taken i became ill and after losing so much weight (5 stone) due to my hospital acquired infection (C. Diff) none of my clothes fit me anymore and I had to get rid of them all. I couldn’t part with this dress though because it makes me remember that day and how I felt.

The dress lived under my bed and my mum suprised me on Ella’s first birthday by upcycling my dress into a gorgeous outfit for Ella.

Now my daughter can wear the dress that i wore when I realised all my dreams had come true. 💗